No Expectations

It's one hell of an emotion, anger. Blood vessels become much more defined, eyes pop, the whole body trembles from the intensity, fingers curl into a fist... and then all of a sudden you're doing things you never intended to do. You hurt people's feelings, say things that you wouldn't generally say, and in the end, your heart's warm and soft sides become a little harder, a little colder.

So, out of respect for my darling friends and readers and others who just piss me off, this post is simply to vent without pointedly calling people up and tearing them apart.

The issue: people who seem reliable/dependable, and turn out to be a bunch of run-amok chickens/cowards.

Either stand up for what's right or back off, because in the end, you're simply hurting yourself and everyone around you, and it's not fair to those who thankfully do not live in your shoes.

And if you make a promise or commitment to something, follow through! This is the real world, people (I know, I'm starting to sound like my mom here) and if you continue down the path of stupidity, you will surely miss out on all of the good, smart things life has to offer...In addition to the fact that backing off tends to lead others into situations that are ten times more difficult than they had to be.

I know I bring this up a lot, but love is not a word just composed of letters that seem to make this nice short sound. It's a word that carries a heavy load -action, caring, sacrifice, commitment.

If you love your job, you put your all into that job, into all of the details that make up the final project. If you love your friend or spouse, you do all that you can to continue in your friendship or marriage, to make it fruitful and make the other one happy. If you love your church, you do all that you can to help others, serving the Master.

None of this is easy. You will feel as though you are being spread too thin. You will feel as though the world is falling on your shoulders and your neck and back are too weak to handle the weight. You will feel like everything possible that could be set against you, is right there, blocking the light.

But in the end, the reward, the light, overcomes the frustration and the ill-minded thoughts or obstacles. In the end, it all matters and comes together like a puzzle with intricate pieces because of your love and dedication and God's help.

This isn't a joke. This isn't something to merely push to one side as though others will simply take care of things you have, so kindly, left behind.

No expectations. Expect everything of yourself with God's help, and nothing of others, and in the end, it WILL all be good.